It's Been A Long Time

WOW, so it's been a long time since I blogged! Again, not even sure if anyone reads this, but when I have time I like to do it. SO, what's been happening since June 19th. Um, let's see, not much really. Um, I had a week off in July, the week after the 4th. Didn't do anything, just hung out at Alex's apartment, hit the pool a couple of days, by the end of the week I had a scratch on my eye, so I could hardly keep my eye opened. That was a lot of fun. OH, I dyed my hair really, really dark brown. Alex suggested it and I thought why not, I need something new. SO, my hair is brown and so far I've got lots of compliments. What else, OH, we went to the Georgia Aquarium for Trevar's 18th birthday. Me, Alex, Trevar, Mom, Dad, Nick, Jenny, Hannah and Noelle, we had lots of fun! It's always fun to be around the fam, they make me happy! Pretty much the rest of the month just working. Working two jobs, stinks, but if Trevar and I are going to get into an apartment, that's what's gonna have to happen. OH YEA, we registered my little one into COLLEGE, YIKES! I can't believe he's going to college. It's crazy! BUT the craziest thing is my 20 year reunion is this coming weekend, I have been graduated from high school for 20 years.

Um, that makes me really sit and think, what has 20 years brought me, confusion, happiness, heart break, stress and now back to happiness. I think right now in my life I am happier than I have been in a while. It's not a person that makes me happy, even though Alex makes me happy, um most of the time, lol! It's just my life. For so long I lived in an unhappy relationship because I was afraid of change and scared of something different and that's just what you do, you stay in it until it gets better, well after 16 years it didn't get better it got worse and even though it was not my choice to leave the relationship, NOW I am so grateful it is over and I can learn to be happy! As crazy as it sounds I am 37 years old and having to deal with emotions that I am not always sure how to deal with. Sometimes I think, this is not how my life is suppose to be, I should be married, have my own house, be in a loving relationship, but you know the more I have thought about it, I am right where God wants me to be. I heard for about 2 years now, "Everything happens for a reason" until I am sick to death, but everybody's right, everything does happen for a reason, it's just not my time to know what that reason is.

SO, for now I am learning to deal with the life I have, I am learning to enjoy it, be happy, even when I think I can't anymore, I can. Cause you know what, there's always someone out there that has it worse. I have the best brother and sister-in-law, two beautiful nieces, a wonderful mom and dad, an awesome son and a great friend that I lean on more than I need to, not to mention all the terrific friends I have around me all the time! SO, happiness has found me, love will find me, I just have to give it time. Right now the focus is an apartment, so if your reading this right now, say a little prayer that in a couple of months an apartment will come through for me and Trevar.

I'll keep you posted on the reunion, this should be FUN!
Love & Peace