Summertime is FUN!

I love a long weekend!! Didn't get to do much, worked Friday night and Saturday afternoon/night, Sunday went to a flag football game, we won!! and then had some of Alex's friends over for a cookout, good times!! Ate with the family yesterday, that always a good time, then on to work again last night, yuck! I am just about tired of the 2nd job, I got like this last year around this time, when everybody's doing fun stuff and I have to either not get to go or leave early to go work it stinks!! Im thinking about taking a couple of months off, only workin one job. I NEED A BREAK! My money situation is getting better so maybe it will work out for the summer! One thing Alex and I did Sunday and Monday was ride the bike, I really enjoy that, I had never rode a motorcycle before I met him, now I rode a dirk bike and many four wheelers, because I was in a "redneck" relationship, but never a bike. It's a lot of fun, I do not like riding on the interstate, that makes me nervous, but I love riding on the back rodes. We didn't get to ride much, just to the football game and then yesterday to my Dad and Mom's house. I like to get on the bike and just ride not have a time to be somewhere. Hopefully we'll get to do that soon.

So, now it's officially summer, for the kids, no more school for two months. I always loved this time of the year when I was a kid. It was the beginning of summer didn't think about school and so many exciting things were going to happen!! Im sort of like that now, I have a couple of things in the works for the summer, nothing really big, but stuff to do. I have a week off in July, again nothing planned but sometimes that is just as much fun, to do nothing!

So even though summer really isn't until June 21st, we'll go ahead and start early. YEAH SUMMER'S HERE! Im excited at the plans that I have and the plans that could just pop up!!

Until next time, peace out! :o)

The Day is HERE!!!

Ok, so this day started off fun, we went to The Rick & Bubba show, with doughnuts, then got invited to go inside. It was really neat and they said Trevar's name on the radio, it was fun!!

So tonight was graduation, Nick, Jenny, Hannah, Noelle, Dad, Mom, Granddaddy, Joey and Kendall showed up and Alex went with me!! I did good, I only cried when all the kids got in a circle and they turned their tassels and tossed their caps in the air, I teared up a little!

So now, tonight there are many graduation party's, enjoying the free feeling that comes with graduating from high school, their not quite an adult and not quite a child any more. There are so many different roads they can take, get a "real" job, go to college, get married, go on a trip, so many things in front of them. I wish I could keep Trevar small and he would always need me, but I know that he has to grow up and move on and one day he'll have a family, we'll be going to his child's graduation! But until then I hope he will need his mom a little and he'll always remember that God is right there to help him, through whatever he does in his life! His favorite bible verse is "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" My prayer tonight for my little baby has he steps into adulthood, sort of, is this:

Father, I come to you tonight as a mother of a graduate, I pray that has Trevar starts on this journey that he always leans on you, that he always remember that family is important and that each decision he makes, he talks to you before he moves on! Thank you for blessing me with this child and I hope that I have taught him the way you would have wanted me to! In Your Holy Name I pray, amen.

It's late and Im tired, so much excitement for one day! Go 2008 Seniors!!
Peace and Joy!

This is a long one! :o)

Aw man, Shockers baseball, we lost, but they played pretty good!! My good friend Alex hit a BOMB outta the park, YAHOO GO ALEX!!! Maybe we just got the loss out of our system, from here on out it's winnin time!!

So graduation, whew, here it comes, Ive already cried today, but that was my aunt Suzy fault, lol. My cousin Taylor is graduating from McAdory tomorrow night also, so they are having a little get together for him after graduation, so she sent me an email inviting me. I sent her one back and I reflected on a day that I went to the doctor with her for her, what we now know, was her final check up before the little baby arrived! So, after the doctor visit we went to her car and she was all, OMG, Give me your hand! Well, I was not sure what she wanted to do with my hand and I could tell she was in some pain, I was all, NO WAY! She said, Really let me see your hand, and at that moment I put my hand on her GIANT belly and it was hard, she was having contractions! I was all, do I need to go get a doctor, she laughed at me and said no, it's fine. Then we were on our way, early the next morning we got a call, she was in labor and little Taylor was born, that was 18 years ago, but I told her today I remember that. She sent back saying, I made her cry and she did remember that day, she also remember the day the call came that Trevar was born and how everyone I loved stood in the hallway, waiting to see if it was a boy or a girl, only to have a couple of minutes of scariness that the cord was wrapped around the baby's neck and every time a contraction came it tightened up and the baby's heart would slow down, but with Gods hand right on my little Trevar he was born and healthy as can be. Which then made me think of that day, July 5, 1990. It was crazy, I went to my checkup with Mom and Debbie, I remember we were going to get something to eat after the appointment. Well when I went to see the doctor, he said we're gonna induce labor, that is when it hit me, this little life I had inside of me was coming out, OHG! After the inducing started everything else was pretty much a blur, doctors in and out, family in and out, do you need any ice chips, are you hurting, can I do anything, but then the moment came where the doctors and nurses were worried, I remember I could see it on their faces, something was wrong, they told everyone to get out, then I was rushed down the hall, just like in a movie, I was going to have surgery, I cried I didn't want anything to be wrong with my baby! The doctor told me I had a choice, either see if the cord would loosen on it's own, which would put the baby at danger or have a c-section, which would put me in danger, no thinking needed, so c-section here we come. ANYWAY, all that to say, I am truly blessed, God have me a healthy baby boy and now my baby is graduating.

Even though at times my life feels outta control, like things never go my way, I have to think about moments like that, things do go my way, I have a healthy son and a wonderful family that stands by me no matter what. Some people don't have that, I am blessed beyond words and my Jesus gets me though each day!

Sorry, tomorrow is graduation, be patient with me for one more day and it will all be over with, I stop with the sappiness!! Promise! :o)

Thanks for stopping by, is anybody reading this?

See YA!

A tribute to an AWESOME guy!!

So, Sunday night went pretty good! There were some awkward moments, but other than that it went GREAT! Each senior had someone stand up and tell somethings about them, I thought Nick would do a good job, for a couple of reasons, I knew I couldn't stand up there and talk without crying and Nick and Trevar have such a special relationship! I think as Trev grows older they get closer, guess it doesn't hurt that they live together. They are so much a like and enjoy the same things. Nick not only shows Trevar how to be an awesome christian but also how to be a loving husband and father. I must say I am a little jealous, I know I am not suppose to be, but I am jealous of Nick and Jenny's marriage, they are so good together. I hope one day I find a guy and I have a marriage that is like theirs. You can tell they are truly best friends and back to Trev, that is important for him to see, that when you are married it's a two way street, one person can't do everything and get nothing in return, it takes two!! And now, like Nick said Sunday night, Trevar has mastered the art of Nick's answer to Jenny, when she calls Nick he answers in a loud, quick, YEAH!, Trevar can now answer Jenny while Nick is busy playing XBOX, lol! Poor Jenny! Anyway, now that Trev is going to be in the "real world" I think it is good for him to see what a real man is like, a good christian that you can see Jesus in him, that always puts his family and friends first, that loves his wife and is her best friend, a man that takes time for his children, either taking them places, acting CRAZY at Chuck E Cheese or just sitting in the chair and hugging them until they yell, "Daddy I can't breathe, your squeezing me too hard!" I am so thankful to God for Nick, Trevar needs a good male role model and I can't think of a better one than my little brother!

TONIGHT: SHOCKER BASEBALL, I CAN'T WAIT!!

Until next time, love and peace

My HAPPY life! :o)

So, have you ever been hurt by someone that you really loved? Like so hurt you didn't think you could make it through the day, so hurt that some days you didn't even want to get out of the bed, so hurt that the love you once felt turned to anger. Then as time goes by you have to see this person, again, and although your life is MUCH better, it seems this persons life is always a little better than what you have! UGH! OK, so if you know me you know what Im talkin about. So, tonight I get to see that person, with their new person in their life, crap! I don't want it to bother me but for some reason, even as long as it's been, it still does. I know that God doesn't give us more than we can handle, but sometimes I think that God thinks I am stronger than what I am, maybe it's me, well of course it's me, God is always right, I just can't find that strength yet. SO tonight, Im gonna be the happy person that I really am, and it's not gonna hurt anything if I dress really cute, hehe!! This night is all about my baby and his graduation dinner, which brings me to a whole nother set of emotions, happy/sad, he's growing up. As I got the LARGE picture board together last night, each picture shows my little Trevar no matter how old he is, it's all the same, my sweet, silly, crazy Trevar. I am so grateful to God for leading Trevar to me here on earth! OK, Im not gonna cry, just yet, gotta get ready for Dick's Sporting Goods, fun!! Until next time, love!

Spray tanning lotion is no good!

OK, so I went to the beach last week with the girls from work, FREE BEACH TRIP, awesome! We left on Wednesday and returned on Saturday, because we thought bad weather was coming, anyways, at the beach I like to just stay on the beach as long as the sun is out, which makes me get a really good tan!! But now, it is peeling off, I tried something new, trying to be all fancy, it was SPF 30, Ocean Potion, in a can and it sprayed, well apparently if the wind is blowing when you spray your SPF 30, it blows it away, so now I have spots that didn't have lotion and it is peeling off, stupid spray. I should just use the lotion that I rub on and I know I got all the spots! UGH, now I look all flaky!

So, today it is 7 days until graduation, I filled out his app for JeffState, wow, that sounds weird! Im still hanging in there, no tears yesterday, yahoo!

Gotta work, ugh, it's raining and it's makin me sleepy!

peace out!
Steph

Counting down the days :o(

So, today is the last day that Trevar will go to high school, well except for Thursday and Friday, but those don't count, their only half days. So, I remember when I found out I was going to have a baby, emotions were mixed, at first of course I was upset, I had just turned 19 years old, what am I gonna do with a little baby. But then the more I thought about it, to have someone depend on you, someone would need me. That part made me happy! I like to feel needed, the thought that someone needs me to do something for them makes me happy, like there is a reason I am here. Now, he's growing up, I think he will still need me, heck I need him, probably more than he needs me. Now the new journey will begin, he is becoming a man, whatever that means, he can shave, vote, be drafted(hopefully not) but I hope that if he has learned anything in his 17 years of life he knows how to treat people, to be honest and caring, to be real. Our life has been tough over the past 2 years but I think it has made both of use stronger and taught both of us how to treat people, just like we would want to be treated and we now know that no matter how much you love someone, you can't always make them do the right thing! SO, we have 8 days left until GRADUATION, so far Im doing good, haven't cried today, but it is just 3:00, there is still time, lol, but I am going to try to keep it together, if I cry around Trevar, he's all, "If you cry, I will punch you in the face" thats not what I have taught him to say, and I hope he's just kiddin! If I cry around Alex, he doesn't know what to do, it upsets him, SO, my goal today is not to be upset. I think I can do it. TODAY WAS A RAMBLING DAY! Until next time, word!

Introducing: MY CRAZZZZZZY LIFE!

OK, so here I go, this is to document my crazy life!! I know what ya'll are thinkin, oh crap here we go, so I'll try not bore anyone. Also like Devin, I felt left out, poo! Anyway, so as most of you know my little, 6"2" baby, Trevar is graduating in a week and three days, now as you may have guess we are both counting down the days for different reasons. He is counting down because for the past 15 years, he has had to go to school, sit and listen, take test, do homework, (sometimes) do class work, eat lunch in the lunchroom, play on the playground, have p.e. in the gym, drive his teachers nuts, etc and now he thinks he is ready to be a grown up! I am counting down because, I know ya'll are going to think I am crazy, hints the "My Crazzzzy Life" but for at least 13 years of those 15 years I have cried the first day of school, just like clock work every 1st of August I would drop him off at school or he would catch a ride, cause he didn't need his mamma any more or he would drive his self, but it all ended the same with me, I would cry all the way to work, for real, no kiddin! I mean his 2nd grade year, I was standing by his little desk and he said "Mom, if your gonna start crying, could you go stand in the hall" UHG! And now what am I gonna do, guess I could pick it up with Noelle since she's starting school this year. Anyway maybe as I am getting ready for graduation, cap and gown, senior pictures, cap and gown pictures, getting pictures ready for a senior dinner at the church, sending out announcements, my tears are flowing, like I can't stop them, so maybe I am crying now so that for the remaining Augusts that I am alive I will not cry at the beginning of school, well maybe I will this year, cause he wont be starting school. MAN I NEED HELP! :,o( Please pray for me!