MY MAW-MAW

Oh my, I don't know where to begin. This time last week I was praying to Jesus to heal my Maw-Maw, give her strength, get her through yet another sickness that has landed her in the hospital.

Here's how it started, Maw-Maw had been sick off and on Thanksgiving week, she went to the ER Friday night, only to have them send her back to the nursing home that evening. Then Sunday morning, I got a call from Mom, they've taken Maw-Maw back to the hospital, no need to come up there, she'll call when we know something. Get a call that evening, she has an infection in her colon, which is what is making her so sick, going to keep her and give her IV antibiotics. I am not going to see her Monday, she'll probably be to tired for visitors. I'll go Tuesday.

Monday morning get a call from my Mom around 7:30, everyone's at work, the hospital called had to take Maw-Maw to the ICU, she's having a little trouble breathing, Mom didn't think it was a big deal, ask me to head up to the hospital for the 9:00 visit, check on her and tell her Mom and Dad would be up as soon as they got off work. OK, here's where it starts going down hill, so I get there and go into the ICU, which I really hate, Grandmother died there, I hate the way it smells, the sounds just the way it feels, but I am there........alone. For those who know me, I don't handle things like this very well. SO I get there and go into the double doors, everythings fine, right, well, I ask the nurse where Betty June Nicholson's room is she points to 287, where there are a couple of nurses and a doctor working on someone, she tells me to step in the hall and they'll let me know when I can see her, as I walk by I see what I believe is a breathing machine hooked to Maw-Maw, not good, I get scared. I stand in the hall at the door way, every time the door opens I see more nurses and the doctor still doing something. At one point the maintenance
guy had walked by a couple of times, guess he could see I was worried, What's your grandmother's name, he ask, I told him and he told me he was going to pray for her. The one of the nurses tell me to sit in the waiting room and that the doctor wants to talk to me. OH CRAP! So I sit and wait, then she comes and gets me, takes me to Maw-Maw bed, she doesn't look good at all, she is on a breathing machine, the doctor tells me that she is critically ill, the infection in her colon has caused her kidneys to stop working, they also think she had a slight heart attack, low blood pressure, high blood cells, he's not sure she going to make it. I get upset, I gotta call Mom, they've got to get up here quickly!!! As I sit and wait on them, I called Nick, Alex and Karen then I am alone in the waiting room, my mind is going in slow motion. What's going on I am not ready to lose her, I'm not working my second job any more, I told her the last time I saw her I would start coming by more often, she was excited about that and so was I. WHY IS THIS HAPPENING!!!!

The rest of the day, the whole family came to the hospital, it's hard to just sit and wait! Around 5:00 a doctor came out and told us he didn't think she would last much longer, ugh! The rest of the night, we would all take turns going to her bed, I told her what a wonderful Maw-Maw she was and that I loved her very much, Trevar and I were the last grandchildren to leave, it was close to midnight, the only ones left were Mom, Dad and my dad's sister. I was going to go home, take my contacts out, sleep for a couple of hours and head back up there, but she left us at 2:00am on Tuesday, December 2, 2008. When Dad called and told me I cried, then I started thinking.................when I went through my divorce 2 years ago, me and Maw-Maw would have some wonderful talks, she helped me through an awful time in my life. She told me how when she was 35 years old, her husband, Granddaddy Nick, her one and only true love had died and she had never dated or re-married, all I could think about was, after 45 years of waiting, they were together again!! It gave me peace!!

The days that followed were hard, we cleaned out her room, so many people came to the door, in tears they are going to miss her too!! We had the visitation, again, she was such a wonderful woman and she had touched so many lives, then the funeral!!

All of this happened between last Monday and Thursday, so it's not over!! I always loved going by there to see her, she was SO funny!! Boy did she have some stories, she never complained, no matter how sick she was. Like I said I know she's in heaven with Granddaddy Nick and I know she can run around and not hurt any more, but man I am going to miss her to much!!!!

Pray for our family, Christmas wont be the same without her, but Jesus now has two of the sweetest angels, Maw-Maw (Betty June Nicholson) and Grandmommy (Irene Tressillian) And I miss them both!!!

September 11th

Well, today is September 11th, until seven years ago it was just another day, but then September 11, 2001 things would be changed forever. The United States were attacked, it was something you only saw in the movies or in other countries, it couldn't happen here!! I am sure at least once today everyone thought about what happened. where you were when it happened and how lives were changed. This morning when I got to work I was listening to Rick and Bubba, they replayed part of their show from that very day, it hit me so hard, I started to cry, it was like all those fears were coming back again and the pain of all those lives lost! I remember that day, we were at work and someone came in and said a plane had crashed into the World Trade Center, we just thought it was an accident, so we turned on the TV to see what they were saying about it, just as we turned it on we were just in time to see the next plane crash. That night we gathered at church and prayed for people in New York, people in Washington, people in Pittsburgh, our country and our President. All this to say, we need to keep these people in our prayers still, even though we get to go thru our lives these people have to live with it every day!! So, keep praying!!

ON A HAPPIER NOTE: Today is my birthday day!!!!! I have had a good day, but I have sneezed all day, what the crap!!!! Just took some medicine, so I should be asleep in about an hour, fun birthday. But really today I had many friends and family members calling me, texting me, emailing me leaving me myspace and facebook messages. I am so blessed to have wonderful people around me. Now I am getting sleepy, I am gonna go now!!

Have a wonderful evening!!!
Word to yo mamma!

Remember to love one another!

So, Thursday was like any other day, until I got to work. Once I got here I hear that one of our co-workers, Rusty, was killed in a car accident on Wednesday night. WOW, I was sort of in shock, not sure what to do or what to say. He had worked here for 10 years, got off work went by his mom's house, like he does every day, and then on the way home was hit head on by lady with two small children in her car. On Friday we heard she had also passed away. Since then, I have really been thinking, wondering if I were to die right now, do the people that I love know how I feel about them? I don't tell every one of my family members, except Trevar, every day that I love them, I don't tell my friends that I love them either. Sometimes I will go weeks without telling someone in my family that I love them, but do they know that anyway. I sure hope so, it makes me realize how you take so many things for granted, just think it's always going to be the same way forever, but it's not. Things change, people change and it's all in God's plan, His love is the only thing that stays the same. So, if you are reading this today, please tell your friends and family how much they mean to you and that you love them.

On a happier note, my little brother, Nick, had a birthday yesterday, 34 years old!! I remember for some reason thinking he was born in our house, I think because I was almost 4 and the only thing I remember was Mom being pregnant in her room and then me going in there, probably days later, and her holding him in her room. I also remember thinking, why do we have to have this little baby in our family. I really didn't want him, I know that was mean, but I was only 4 and was spoiled rotten!! BUT, today, I am every grateful to God that He placed us in the same family. I don't know what I would do without my Nick. Over the years we have gotten closer, probably a little closer than he would have liked, lol, but I am so thankful that I have him. Plus he gave me my little Hannah and Noelle!! :o)

Until next time, word up! :o)

Different Stuff!!

So, 20 year class reunion,um, what can I say about it. Hard to believe I had a 20 year anything much less being out of school for 20 years. SO, it was a little strange, I dated and married the same guy from high school, so everybody there only knew me as me with him and now I am not AND I went by myself, which was HUGH for me. Not real good about doing things, especially like this, by myself, but hey, I made it and had a great time!

Alex's brother Eric is in town from Illinois, he's a fun guy! They give me a hard time and when Trevar's with them, like last night, MAN it's a wonder I want to hang with them at all, but I know they are just kidding around with me. Last night we stayed up until 1:30, with them playin Rock Band, I must say they got pretty good, Trev on guitar, Eric on drums and Alex on vocals.

Hey, my sister-in-law, Jenny so she's like an awesome photographer, I mean really good!! If you haven't already check her web-site, http://www.jennifernicholsonphotography.com/, but anyway, so she got invited to be in Birmingham Artwalk 2008 and I am so EXCITED!! This is going to show a bunch of people what a talent she has, I mean I know she's my sister and all but really guys see for your self, she is awesome! So come out and so the love, it's downtown Bham, Sept 5th & 6th. This is going to be huge for her!!

I've told you some about my brother and let me tell you a little about my sister (in-law), you know how you are sometimes protective over your little brother (or sister) and who he/she dates, well when Nick started dating Jenny I liked her, right off. She fit in our family perfectly, guess that's why she's still around. I always kid Nick and tell him if something was to happened to them, she stays and he goes, now I am just joking but that's how much I love her! She and I have always been close, I can only think of one time where we had a disagreement and it was stupid, we talked it out and everything worked out. BUT she is a talented, sweet, loving person, you can't help but like her when you are around her. She has this amazing voice, that I think our little Hannah also has, but it is such a beautiful sound when she sings. I keep kidding her about when(if) I get married, I am like, "You are either going to be my maid of honor, my wedding singer or my photographer" Maybe we could figure how to do all three, lol! She likes to be behind the camera, which isn't always good, we need some pictures of her, that's another thing she is so pretty. (I am not trying to suck up to Jenny, I am just telling you about this awesome person) She is a wonderful wife to my brother, a great mom to Hannah and Noelle, an awesome aunt to my Trevar and absolutely a terrific sister, if you don't believe me just ask her real sister's Susan and Sabrina. All I am saying is that I am so thankful to God that He put Jenny in my brothers life and gave me a true friend that I can call a sister! I love you Jenny!!

OK, gotta go start a fun filled weekend with my Trev and the Slichenmyer brothers!! UGH, LOL!

Be Safe!

It's Been A Long Time

WOW, so it's been a long time since I blogged! Again, not even sure if anyone reads this, but when I have time I like to do it. SO, what's been happening since June 19th. Um, let's see, not much really. Um, I had a week off in July, the week after the 4th. Didn't do anything, just hung out at Alex's apartment, hit the pool a couple of days, by the end of the week I had a scratch on my eye, so I could hardly keep my eye opened. That was a lot of fun. OH, I dyed my hair really, really dark brown. Alex suggested it and I thought why not, I need something new. SO, my hair is brown and so far I've got lots of compliments. What else, OH, we went to the Georgia Aquarium for Trevar's 18th birthday. Me, Alex, Trevar, Mom, Dad, Nick, Jenny, Hannah and Noelle, we had lots of fun! It's always fun to be around the fam, they make me happy! Pretty much the rest of the month just working. Working two jobs, stinks, but if Trevar and I are going to get into an apartment, that's what's gonna have to happen. OH YEA, we registered my little one into COLLEGE, YIKES! I can't believe he's going to college. It's crazy! BUT the craziest thing is my 20 year reunion is this coming weekend, I have been graduated from high school for 20 years.

Um, that makes me really sit and think, what has 20 years brought me, confusion, happiness, heart break, stress and now back to happiness. I think right now in my life I am happier than I have been in a while. It's not a person that makes me happy, even though Alex makes me happy, um most of the time, lol! It's just my life. For so long I lived in an unhappy relationship because I was afraid of change and scared of something different and that's just what you do, you stay in it until it gets better, well after 16 years it didn't get better it got worse and even though it was not my choice to leave the relationship, NOW I am so grateful it is over and I can learn to be happy! As crazy as it sounds I am 37 years old and having to deal with emotions that I am not always sure how to deal with. Sometimes I think, this is not how my life is suppose to be, I should be married, have my own house, be in a loving relationship, but you know the more I have thought about it, I am right where God wants me to be. I heard for about 2 years now, "Everything happens for a reason" until I am sick to death, but everybody's right, everything does happen for a reason, it's just not my time to know what that reason is.

SO, for now I am learning to deal with the life I have, I am learning to enjoy it, be happy, even when I think I can't anymore, I can. Cause you know what, there's always someone out there that has it worse. I have the best brother and sister-in-law, two beautiful nieces, a wonderful mom and dad, an awesome son and a great friend that I lean on more than I need to, not to mention all the terrific friends I have around me all the time! SO, happiness has found me, love will find me, I just have to give it time. Right now the focus is an apartment, so if your reading this right now, say a little prayer that in a couple of months an apartment will come through for me and Trevar.

I'll keep you posted on the reunion, this should be FUN!
Love & Peace

Aw, America's greatest past time, BASEBALL!

I LOVE BASEBALL!! Really I do, not just the cute guys in the tight ball pants, but the game! I grew up in it, now I played softball, cause girls didn't play baseball, but I was all around it. My Dad's Dad, Granddaddy Nick, whom I never met, was the first President of Greenwood Dixie Youth, which was a long time ago, my parents have a picture of my Dad's baseball team, with Granddaddy Nick as the coach, my Dad was just a little guy, maybe 9 or 10. Once we got old enough, which I was probably 10 and Nick was probably 6, we started playing at Greenwood, boy did we have some fun, fun times there! The park was small, not too many teams, if you played there you pretty much knew everyone that played there. It was sort of like an extended family. As we got older, my parents got more involved, my Dad actually was the president and any given week day afternoon he could be found on the lawn mower dragging the field and linin it off, getting ready for the night games. Mom help with the concession stand, during Allstars, if we were not playing somewhere and we had a tournament going, you could usually find us taking up the gate money, working the press box or working the concession stand, for $5.00 a game. We would also go watch the Birmingham Barons play, now Im telling my age, but we would go to Rickwood Field and watch, fun times! There was a player that I really liked, his name was George Foussianes, when he got up to bat, everyone would start saying, FOO, FOO, FOO, it was so much fun! Then as I got older and had Trevar I couldn't wait for him to play, neither could the rest of the family, my Dad gave Trevar a baseball jacket and ball cap, before he was even born, we didn't even know if he was a girl or a boy, sure enough, he played from 4 years old to 15 years old, we were at the park ALL THE TIME and loved every minute of it. SO, now here I am 37 years old, yikes, and I still love the game, the Braves, the Barons, and yes even the Cardinals, I'll watch it on TV, it doesn't matter who's playin! The fun thing now is, I am hanging out with a guy that loves the game as much, or more, than I do. Alex plays on the Shockers with Nick, so baseball is every where!! Last year he and I went to Montgomery to watch the Biscuits play the Mississippi, Braves, which his buddy plays on. Also, we keep scorin tickets to the Barons, nothing better than a FREE baseball game. So, tonight on Thirsty Thursday, drinks $1 and $.20 wings, we are GOIN TO THE BALLPARK, and I can't wait!

I'll leave you with a quote from The Great Bambino: "Never let the fear of striking out get in your way" Herman "Babe" Ruth

Second Job, YUCK!

I have said lately how much I hate having a second job, we I do, I haven't been to my second job in a week, but in 1 hour I will have to clock in but on the up side it's only 4 hours. This weekend was so much fun, I love City Stages, how bout it was me and four guys, yahoo, look at me, lol! I was with Alex, Matt, his buddy from IL, Adam, his buddy from college and Tyler, our buddy from Dicks. We had a lot of fun, and now I have to go and be all "Welcome to Dicks, thank you and come again," I am hungry, I had a peach for lunch, which was really good, but I am really hungry! I really want to quit but I really need the extra money. I WANT MY OWN PLACE! Anyway, thats really all I have today, gotta go put on the green and khaki, fun, fun!

See ya on the flip side! :o)

Random Stuff

So, Sunday Alex and I went for a ride on the motorcycle. It was so much fun, I really enjoy sitting on the back of the bike, it's much different than riding in a car, you get to experience things differently. Like the wind, it's really neat to be able to feel the wind, of course not in my hair I do wear a helmet, it's the law, but just to feel the wind and you see things differently, it's like your right there, a bird flew down at us, scary, a squirrel almost ran out in front of us, yikes, you can also smell, yuck, you don't realize how many dead animals are round unless your on a bike. My behind hurt though, you would think with all the padding I have on my big ole butt it wouldn't hurt, but when you ride for about two hours it really starts to wear on you, ouch! The only down side to a bike it that you can't talk, and if you know me you know I like to talk, i think that's why Alex likes riding the bike cause he doesn't have to talk to me, just kidding, I did suggest walkie talkie things in our helmet, he was all, lol real funny. Anyway, it was so much fun, I think everyone should experience it!!

OK, so I am doing our end of the year inventory at SSRC, I HATE IT, I've been working on it for about a week and on top of that today I had a sneeze attack! UGH! So no I feel like crap, my nose is as red as Rodolph's, I could lead Santa's sled tonight, lol! But I really do feel bad! :o(

Have you ever watched "The First 48"? I really like this show, it's kindof sad though. It's a show about detectives solving homicides. It's crazy how they can find the murderers, I love when they catch the bad guy. Everyone doesn't like this show, but I find it very interesting how they catch the bad guys. It is sad that there are so many killings and that they can make a show out of it.

Well, my sinus medicine is starting to kick in, I am getting very sleepy.

That's all for now, see ya!

Packed Weekend

Um, where do I start, lets see, ok Friday I didn't have to work that night at Dick's Sporting Good, which was awesome! So, I went to Wal-Mart and then rocked out with Casey and Trevar to Rock Band, which I must say was a lot of fun! We totally rocked Sabotage by Beastie Boys, me on guitar, Casey on drums and Trevar rap the vocals. I think we should have a concert! Then hung out with Alex and a couple of Dick's (sporting goods) employees, fun times! Saturday, went to work from 8:00-2:00, got off and headed to Thatcher's 1st birthday party! Man he got lots of stuff! It's always so awesome to see a baby with all the people around him that love him so much. I remember when Trevar was little and we'd have parties with tons of people, some times I would just stand back and think how lucky he is to have all these people love and care for him, same with Thatcher, I was looking around at the party and he is a lucky little boy and cute, oh my gosh, he is too cute!! Hope he likes his Little People Farm that his cousin Stephie got him! Then I headed back to Dick's Sporting Goods to climb the rock wall, which is really harder than it looks, didn't do so good like I did last time. Ran into a couple of people that I haven't seen in years, funny thing when I see people I haven't see in a while, they always ask, how are you doing and I say I am doing very good and they say are you really. Well heck yeah I am! I guess people think I suppose to still be upset over my marriage not working out, nah, I think I am much happier and much, much better off out of that marriage! Then Alex took me to dinner and to hear a band, Saturday night was too much fun! Sunday, again Dick's Sporting Goods, only from 9:00-1:00 then off to the Fish Bowl. Alex and Trevar's flag football team, Fire and Brimstone, went to the super bowl of flag football, The Fish Bowl. We lost 19-13, they played really good. Got wet, got cold then got hot, crazy weather! Left there and went to Shockers baseball, which they won the first game, when I got there is started raining, bad, so Jenny and I ran to the car with her huge umbrella and the wind was blowing so hard it almost took our umbrella, we were laughing so hard, then off to On Tap to hang with the team, funny when you get a bunch of guys together after a game how they go over very play and I can't usually remember any plays, which I am usually talkin, surprise! So that was my fun, packed weekend, I am tired but I had fun so I'll just suck it up!

Oh yeah, trying to figure out this twitter stuff, it is really confusing me. I want to do it, but I think Im too stupid! Mollie tried to explain how to get it set up, but I am too dumb to figure it out. Maybe I can get someone to help me!

Until next time, peace out and word to your mother!

Summertime is FUN!

I love a long weekend!! Didn't get to do much, worked Friday night and Saturday afternoon/night, Sunday went to a flag football game, we won!! and then had some of Alex's friends over for a cookout, good times!! Ate with the family yesterday, that always a good time, then on to work again last night, yuck! I am just about tired of the 2nd job, I got like this last year around this time, when everybody's doing fun stuff and I have to either not get to go or leave early to go work it stinks!! Im thinking about taking a couple of months off, only workin one job. I NEED A BREAK! My money situation is getting better so maybe it will work out for the summer! One thing Alex and I did Sunday and Monday was ride the bike, I really enjoy that, I had never rode a motorcycle before I met him, now I rode a dirk bike and many four wheelers, because I was in a "redneck" relationship, but never a bike. It's a lot of fun, I do not like riding on the interstate, that makes me nervous, but I love riding on the back rodes. We didn't get to ride much, just to the football game and then yesterday to my Dad and Mom's house. I like to get on the bike and just ride not have a time to be somewhere. Hopefully we'll get to do that soon.

So, now it's officially summer, for the kids, no more school for two months. I always loved this time of the year when I was a kid. It was the beginning of summer didn't think about school and so many exciting things were going to happen!! Im sort of like that now, I have a couple of things in the works for the summer, nothing really big, but stuff to do. I have a week off in July, again nothing planned but sometimes that is just as much fun, to do nothing!

So even though summer really isn't until June 21st, we'll go ahead and start early. YEAH SUMMER'S HERE! Im excited at the plans that I have and the plans that could just pop up!!

Until next time, peace out! :o)

The Day is HERE!!!

Ok, so this day started off fun, we went to The Rick & Bubba show, with doughnuts, then got invited to go inside. It was really neat and they said Trevar's name on the radio, it was fun!!

So tonight was graduation, Nick, Jenny, Hannah, Noelle, Dad, Mom, Granddaddy, Joey and Kendall showed up and Alex went with me!! I did good, I only cried when all the kids got in a circle and they turned their tassels and tossed their caps in the air, I teared up a little!

So now, tonight there are many graduation party's, enjoying the free feeling that comes with graduating from high school, their not quite an adult and not quite a child any more. There are so many different roads they can take, get a "real" job, go to college, get married, go on a trip, so many things in front of them. I wish I could keep Trevar small and he would always need me, but I know that he has to grow up and move on and one day he'll have a family, we'll be going to his child's graduation! But until then I hope he will need his mom a little and he'll always remember that God is right there to help him, through whatever he does in his life! His favorite bible verse is "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" My prayer tonight for my little baby has he steps into adulthood, sort of, is this:

Father, I come to you tonight as a mother of a graduate, I pray that has Trevar starts on this journey that he always leans on you, that he always remember that family is important and that each decision he makes, he talks to you before he moves on! Thank you for blessing me with this child and I hope that I have taught him the way you would have wanted me to! In Your Holy Name I pray, amen.

It's late and Im tired, so much excitement for one day! Go 2008 Seniors!!
Peace and Joy!

This is a long one! :o)

Aw man, Shockers baseball, we lost, but they played pretty good!! My good friend Alex hit a BOMB outta the park, YAHOO GO ALEX!!! Maybe we just got the loss out of our system, from here on out it's winnin time!!

So graduation, whew, here it comes, Ive already cried today, but that was my aunt Suzy fault, lol. My cousin Taylor is graduating from McAdory tomorrow night also, so they are having a little get together for him after graduation, so she sent me an email inviting me. I sent her one back and I reflected on a day that I went to the doctor with her for her, what we now know, was her final check up before the little baby arrived! So, after the doctor visit we went to her car and she was all, OMG, Give me your hand! Well, I was not sure what she wanted to do with my hand and I could tell she was in some pain, I was all, NO WAY! She said, Really let me see your hand, and at that moment I put my hand on her GIANT belly and it was hard, she was having contractions! I was all, do I need to go get a doctor, she laughed at me and said no, it's fine. Then we were on our way, early the next morning we got a call, she was in labor and little Taylor was born, that was 18 years ago, but I told her today I remember that. She sent back saying, I made her cry and she did remember that day, she also remember the day the call came that Trevar was born and how everyone I loved stood in the hallway, waiting to see if it was a boy or a girl, only to have a couple of minutes of scariness that the cord was wrapped around the baby's neck and every time a contraction came it tightened up and the baby's heart would slow down, but with Gods hand right on my little Trevar he was born and healthy as can be. Which then made me think of that day, July 5, 1990. It was crazy, I went to my checkup with Mom and Debbie, I remember we were going to get something to eat after the appointment. Well when I went to see the doctor, he said we're gonna induce labor, that is when it hit me, this little life I had inside of me was coming out, OHG! After the inducing started everything else was pretty much a blur, doctors in and out, family in and out, do you need any ice chips, are you hurting, can I do anything, but then the moment came where the doctors and nurses were worried, I remember I could see it on their faces, something was wrong, they told everyone to get out, then I was rushed down the hall, just like in a movie, I was going to have surgery, I cried I didn't want anything to be wrong with my baby! The doctor told me I had a choice, either see if the cord would loosen on it's own, which would put the baby at danger or have a c-section, which would put me in danger, no thinking needed, so c-section here we come. ANYWAY, all that to say, I am truly blessed, God have me a healthy baby boy and now my baby is graduating.

Even though at times my life feels outta control, like things never go my way, I have to think about moments like that, things do go my way, I have a healthy son and a wonderful family that stands by me no matter what. Some people don't have that, I am blessed beyond words and my Jesus gets me though each day!

Sorry, tomorrow is graduation, be patient with me for one more day and it will all be over with, I stop with the sappiness!! Promise! :o)

Thanks for stopping by, is anybody reading this?

See YA!

A tribute to an AWESOME guy!!

So, Sunday night went pretty good! There were some awkward moments, but other than that it went GREAT! Each senior had someone stand up and tell somethings about them, I thought Nick would do a good job, for a couple of reasons, I knew I couldn't stand up there and talk without crying and Nick and Trevar have such a special relationship! I think as Trev grows older they get closer, guess it doesn't hurt that they live together. They are so much a like and enjoy the same things. Nick not only shows Trevar how to be an awesome christian but also how to be a loving husband and father. I must say I am a little jealous, I know I am not suppose to be, but I am jealous of Nick and Jenny's marriage, they are so good together. I hope one day I find a guy and I have a marriage that is like theirs. You can tell they are truly best friends and back to Trev, that is important for him to see, that when you are married it's a two way street, one person can't do everything and get nothing in return, it takes two!! And now, like Nick said Sunday night, Trevar has mastered the art of Nick's answer to Jenny, when she calls Nick he answers in a loud, quick, YEAH!, Trevar can now answer Jenny while Nick is busy playing XBOX, lol! Poor Jenny! Anyway, now that Trev is going to be in the "real world" I think it is good for him to see what a real man is like, a good christian that you can see Jesus in him, that always puts his family and friends first, that loves his wife and is her best friend, a man that takes time for his children, either taking them places, acting CRAZY at Chuck E Cheese or just sitting in the chair and hugging them until they yell, "Daddy I can't breathe, your squeezing me too hard!" I am so thankful to God for Nick, Trevar needs a good male role model and I can't think of a better one than my little brother!

TONIGHT: SHOCKER BASEBALL, I CAN'T WAIT!!

Until next time, love and peace

My HAPPY life! :o)

So, have you ever been hurt by someone that you really loved? Like so hurt you didn't think you could make it through the day, so hurt that some days you didn't even want to get out of the bed, so hurt that the love you once felt turned to anger. Then as time goes by you have to see this person, again, and although your life is MUCH better, it seems this persons life is always a little better than what you have! UGH! OK, so if you know me you know what Im talkin about. So, tonight I get to see that person, with their new person in their life, crap! I don't want it to bother me but for some reason, even as long as it's been, it still does. I know that God doesn't give us more than we can handle, but sometimes I think that God thinks I am stronger than what I am, maybe it's me, well of course it's me, God is always right, I just can't find that strength yet. SO tonight, Im gonna be the happy person that I really am, and it's not gonna hurt anything if I dress really cute, hehe!! This night is all about my baby and his graduation dinner, which brings me to a whole nother set of emotions, happy/sad, he's growing up. As I got the LARGE picture board together last night, each picture shows my little Trevar no matter how old he is, it's all the same, my sweet, silly, crazy Trevar. I am so grateful to God for leading Trevar to me here on earth! OK, Im not gonna cry, just yet, gotta get ready for Dick's Sporting Goods, fun!! Until next time, love!

Spray tanning lotion is no good!

OK, so I went to the beach last week with the girls from work, FREE BEACH TRIP, awesome! We left on Wednesday and returned on Saturday, because we thought bad weather was coming, anyways, at the beach I like to just stay on the beach as long as the sun is out, which makes me get a really good tan!! But now, it is peeling off, I tried something new, trying to be all fancy, it was SPF 30, Ocean Potion, in a can and it sprayed, well apparently if the wind is blowing when you spray your SPF 30, it blows it away, so now I have spots that didn't have lotion and it is peeling off, stupid spray. I should just use the lotion that I rub on and I know I got all the spots! UGH, now I look all flaky!

So, today it is 7 days until graduation, I filled out his app for JeffState, wow, that sounds weird! Im still hanging in there, no tears yesterday, yahoo!

Gotta work, ugh, it's raining and it's makin me sleepy!

peace out!
Steph

Counting down the days :o(

So, today is the last day that Trevar will go to high school, well except for Thursday and Friday, but those don't count, their only half days. So, I remember when I found out I was going to have a baby, emotions were mixed, at first of course I was upset, I had just turned 19 years old, what am I gonna do with a little baby. But then the more I thought about it, to have someone depend on you, someone would need me. That part made me happy! I like to feel needed, the thought that someone needs me to do something for them makes me happy, like there is a reason I am here. Now, he's growing up, I think he will still need me, heck I need him, probably more than he needs me. Now the new journey will begin, he is becoming a man, whatever that means, he can shave, vote, be drafted(hopefully not) but I hope that if he has learned anything in his 17 years of life he knows how to treat people, to be honest and caring, to be real. Our life has been tough over the past 2 years but I think it has made both of use stronger and taught both of us how to treat people, just like we would want to be treated and we now know that no matter how much you love someone, you can't always make them do the right thing! SO, we have 8 days left until GRADUATION, so far Im doing good, haven't cried today, but it is just 3:00, there is still time, lol, but I am going to try to keep it together, if I cry around Trevar, he's all, "If you cry, I will punch you in the face" thats not what I have taught him to say, and I hope he's just kiddin! If I cry around Alex, he doesn't know what to do, it upsets him, SO, my goal today is not to be upset. I think I can do it. TODAY WAS A RAMBLING DAY! Until next time, word!

Introducing: MY CRAZZZZZZY LIFE!

OK, so here I go, this is to document my crazy life!! I know what ya'll are thinkin, oh crap here we go, so I'll try not bore anyone. Also like Devin, I felt left out, poo! Anyway, so as most of you know my little, 6"2" baby, Trevar is graduating in a week and three days, now as you may have guess we are both counting down the days for different reasons. He is counting down because for the past 15 years, he has had to go to school, sit and listen, take test, do homework, (sometimes) do class work, eat lunch in the lunchroom, play on the playground, have p.e. in the gym, drive his teachers nuts, etc and now he thinks he is ready to be a grown up! I am counting down because, I know ya'll are going to think I am crazy, hints the "My Crazzzzy Life" but for at least 13 years of those 15 years I have cried the first day of school, just like clock work every 1st of August I would drop him off at school or he would catch a ride, cause he didn't need his mamma any more or he would drive his self, but it all ended the same with me, I would cry all the way to work, for real, no kiddin! I mean his 2nd grade year, I was standing by his little desk and he said "Mom, if your gonna start crying, could you go stand in the hall" UHG! And now what am I gonna do, guess I could pick it up with Noelle since she's starting school this year. Anyway maybe as I am getting ready for graduation, cap and gown, senior pictures, cap and gown pictures, getting pictures ready for a senior dinner at the church, sending out announcements, my tears are flowing, like I can't stop them, so maybe I am crying now so that for the remaining Augusts that I am alive I will not cry at the beginning of school, well maybe I will this year, cause he wont be starting school. MAN I NEED HELP! :,o( Please pray for me!